Waiting For Godot.. and others.

Finally they here!
Exams that is.
God knows they are so much better than school.
Which has become tedious.

Exams are freedom in a way..
study and then write.. and that is it..
for instance ;
i only have to write again on monday.
And i only wrote yesterday.. tuesday.

But the test was horrible. Confusing and lovely at the same time.
And i had to sit there for like ages to wait for everyone to finish.
Because we can no longer walk out of the venue when we are done.
No, we must wait.
I figure to not disturb the people who are still writing?
But God knows, waiting there gets so annoying, that you become more annoying sitting there than you would have been walking out..
But enough on that.
Waiting for Godot was lovely.
I enjoyed learning about Freud and Nietzsche and Einstein and Existentialism and then something called Nihilism.. It was very educational.

Last night, for some reason.
I found Ugly Betty super amusing?
Was i alone in this?
That whole "Marc might not walk like a man, or talk like one.. and he might have some lesbian features.."
that was the best?
Alone in that?
Okay then.

You know what i find amusing. The "labels for this post" box at the end..
One of the examples is scooters? Who the fuck blogs about scooters?
Unless your Italian, French or 16, why would you blog about Scooters?
Obviously someone does it regularly, otherwise it wouldn't be an example?
Or maybe bloggers creator had a scooter fetish?

I dont know.


I have nothing more to say.
For now.
As i am immensely bored.
and will now go drown myself in
Nabokov.

Love fookers <3

The loneliness becomes unbearable. A rant in many words

Open.
I feel open and vulnerable and god knows i hate that feeling.

I saw a friend tonight, whom i love to bits. Load of fun.
But still, i feel empty and vulnerable.
Like i am drowning in some sort of vortex. And im not a fucking sci-fi freak! God save me!

I have felt lonely before. very much.
But tonight feels different.. more, waterfall like.
the word waterfall amuses me.. waterfall has two L's.. but thankful only has one..
it makes no sense to my tiny mind..

I met this woman, through an amazing woman, called Janis Ian.
Ok so, i did not personally meet her! BUT, i do listen to her until youtube stops working.. (until, another word with no double L)

I have started believing that God has give us all happiness, the whole world!
But, we are to busy looking for reasons not be happy, as to find happiness through them, to notice. Maybe god has been on earth again, maybe he did touch us.
We are just to fucking silly to realize this. Cause you know, what you wear to a grade 11 valentines dance, really will affect your life one day..
If you are going to be a bloody designer for grade 11 valentines balls yes?
Otherwise, get over it.
Smile like no one is watching.
Love fookers.
LOVE THE FUCKING EARTH.
people are temporary.. you sleep on her every-night.. or at least sort of.



Honesty fookers.
Smile <3

;[

I think i have lost my words.

Mothers Day and Exploding dogs.

So, first of all. Ive not posted in a while.
But, since today is mothers day, i feel i should.
Happy mothers day, to all those mothers and such.

I forgot about this festive day, completely. Until friday.
Then, i forgot that you have to get something for this day.
So i didnt.
But, then i remembered, EXPLODING DOG, and ee cummings!
So, i just wrote a poem by ee cumming on the back of a very cute exploding dog picture, and gave my mother that. She loved it.

Anyway,
this week was. the worst. ever.
I have lost my words.
And i feel i cant write anymore.
And thus, i should stop.

Even this blog post seems silly and horrible.
But thats a different story then.
Or what am i saying.

Check out the poem
Its lovely.
[some of my work is also on there.. hint-hint-nudge-nudge]

Anyway, the boarders have moved out.
the backyard seems empty and very much lonely.
But i guess everything happens for a reason.
No?

will updated this horrible post later.

smile.